ruins

there's something forming in my heart that I've been pondering how to put into words for a couple of weeks now. I think it will have to come out slowly.

as usual, I'm finding that other people can articulate it better and less messily than me, so for now, here's what I want to share...just a couple verses from Bebo's song "Ruins."

I've no fear of height or depth

I've no fear of crashing

The single thing I fear the most

Is simply feeling nothing

that's one lesson...it's more like a longing. a longing to have no fear of anything, except of deadening my heart and making it incapable of love and pain. but it's so natural to us to fear...to be afraid of letting go and crashing...and how else can this heart be set free to love recklessly unless He's the One setting it free? only faith in Something as big as Him can free our tangled hearts to love like that.

Let my ruins become the ground You build upon

Let my ruins become the start

Let my ruins become the ground You build it on

From what's left of my broken heart

and that's the lesson I can't quite put into words yet. but it goes something along the lines of...

"Behold, I make all things new."